I have an intense want to fall in love
I smell like sex…and not like omg I smell so good…like literal sex from this morning.
It’s such bullshit when boys hype you up for something and then it never happens..like why are you gonna text me and be like “omg I can’t wait to see you, the first thing I’m gonna do is kiss you” and then when you text them saying “you wanna hang out?” No response. Like fuck you, fuck you very much.
If I was at school I’d be with the most amazing friends getting completely belligerent, shotgunning beers, funneling beers, taking hits off of a grav bong, taking fireball shots at the bar and dancing our asses off. I would be with my boy, kissing him and getting drunk and going home with him. I would wake up beside him to start off 2014….but no. I am at home on my birthday getting drunk by myself and waiting until my mom makes pizza. WTF college is like the best but worst thing ever.
1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs
love it -mariana hill
poetic justice -kendrick lamar and drake
down by the river -milky chance
one day reckoning song -idk who by
hold my liquor -kanye
baby come back -kill paris
feeling myself -will i am, miley cyrus, french montana
back to cali -notorious big (yinyues remix)
lady of the sunshine -robin schulz
smoke weed everyday -rasmus hedegaard remix
2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you?
I would go to new zealand because I’ve always wanted to travel there because it’s so beautiful and at this point in time I wouldn’t take anyone with me
3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen)
I HATE blue pens, black ball point pens are my favorite and mechanical pencils
4.Favourite month and why?
October, I love the smell of fall and Halloween and the way the leaves rustle and bonfires and being snuggled in a sweater
5.Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them.
Nothing major but I’m related to Stonewall Jackson from the civil war
6.Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are.
My phone, my teddy bear, a cup of water
7.What brand logo is closest to you currently?
I’m wearing pants that are under armour brand
8.Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favourites?
I like scrabble, apples to apples and sorry! is my favorite
9.A musical artist you love that isn’t well known
this is tumblr every music artist is well known…but Jack’s Mannequin is my favorite band and not a lot of people listen to them anymore
10.A musical artist you love that is well known
I LOVE adam levine..he’s the first person who comes to mind
11.What is your desktop background currently?
grey and white chevron and my monogram in black
12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them
I last spoke in person with my mom about christmas plans
13. First colour name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow
14.What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in?
my phone, I have a watch on my wrist and that’s it
15. What kind of headphones do you use?
AHHH I just got skull candy big headphones and I’m in love with them
16.What musical artists have you seen perform live?
I’ve seen an array of bands, and hilary duff when I was younger haha
17.Does virginity matter to you?
Not really, no
18.What gaming consoles do you or your family own?
a wii and that’s it
19.What pets do you have? What are their names?
Well I’m in college so I don’t count my family pets anymore really but I have a puppy named Lila that stays with me at school
20.What’s the best job you’ve ever had?
I had a job at a grocery store that was really rewarding in a lot of ways
21.What’s the worst job you’ve ever had?
My current job when I’m home from school is horrid and I hate it with a burning passion…I lifeguard
22.What magazines do you read, if any?
Cosmo and that’s it
22.Inspiration behind your URL?
it’s just my name
23.Inspiration behind your blog title?
Just keep everything simple and clean cut, nothing too much and no drama
24.Favourite item of clothing?
I’m currently obsessed with this jacket I bought that is the material of a blanket, and it’s oversized and has a hood and it’s just wonderful
25.Are you friends with any exes?
uhm, kind of..I talk with my one ex pretty frequently
26.Name at least one book you loved as a child.
Guess how much I love you
27.What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation? (eg. AU English, US English)
28.What email service do you use?
29.Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in?
yeah there’s some random pictures of me with friend from like 10th grade
30.What’s your favourite number, and why?
13, and I’ve just always loved that number really
31.Earliest moment in your life you can remember?
I was 10 months old and sitting on my changing table at halloween and my mom was putting mascara on me and said “quit blinking you’re making this difficult”
32.What did you have for dinner yesterday?
33.How often do you brush your teeth?
Every morning and most nights
34.What’s your favourite candy/chocolate?
35.Have you had other blogs on Tumblr? Do you have any other blogs currently?
yes and yes
36.If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat?
Whatever I was craving…probably something sweet
37.What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of?
38.If you could study anything, what would it be?
I’m studying exactly what I want to be and that’s biology
39.Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick)
I use chapstick daily and then lipstick sometimes
40.How would you describe your sense of humour?
I like stupid jokes…like puns or the jokes on popsicle sticks and I’m also very sarcastic
41.What things annoy you more than anything else?
42.What kind of position are you in at the moment?
43.Do you wear much jewelry?
no not really, just earrings if anything on the reg
44.Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders? (State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc)
45.Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own
46.What do you carry your money in?
a Lilly Pulitzer wristlet
47.Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not?
I LOVE driving, I drive home from school all the time and that’s a 7 hour drive. There’s something so riveting about being in a car all alone and being able to blast music and sing your heart out with no one around and you can go anywhere you want.
48.Longest drive you have ever been on?
probably like 12 hours
49.Furthest away from home you have ever been?
I’ve been to the bahamas and I live in north carolina
50. How many times have you moved house?
5 times total
51.What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture?
random shit, idek
52. How many devices do you own which can access the internet?
53.Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy?
Halloween, Jack’s Mannequin and Harry Potter are the the three things I can count on to cheer me up
54.Is there anything that always makes you sad?
thinking about certain things, certain people
55.What programs do you currently have open?
56.What do you associate the colour red with?
I hate the color red…so usually anger, annoyance
57.Last strong smell you can remember smelling?
my cousin got justin bieber perfume for xmas and I smelled it
58.Last healthy thing you ate?
I ate cheerios this morning, and salad yesterday
59.Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day?
I drink both, but not everyday
60.What do you associate the colour blue with?
calming, the ocean, my eyes haha
61.How long is the closest ruler you can find?
62.What colour pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing?
63.When was the last time you drank water?
a couple hours ago
64.How often do you clear your browser history?
65.Do you believe nude photos can be artistic rather than erotic?
definitely! I’ve seen some beautiful pictures where people are nude
66.Ever written fanfiction for anything?
67.Last formal event you attended
Chapter for my sorority.
68.If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why?
Probably sometime during the fall like september so I could be with all my friends at school on my birthday instead of at home screwed out of plans
69.Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside?
the beach right now, but I love the countryside
70.Roughly how many people live in your town?
a shit ton lol I honestly have no idea
71.Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
72.Favourite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores
forever 21 most definitely
73.Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one?
I have an iphone 4s
74.What is your least favourite colour, and why?
red because it makes me like angry and idk I just don’t like it
75.How do you spell grey/gray?
76.Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link)
It’s stairs with a blue wall and someone on them in like a parka haha
77.What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow?
78.How many posts do you have?
28,134 lol I need a life
79.How many posts have you liked?
80.Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content?
81.Do you track any tags?
82.What time is it currently?
83.Is there anything you should be doing right now?
I wanna sleep so bad but every time I close my eyes I get the spins
I wanna know him in every way that I can. I wanna talk dirty to him and see what makes him tick, I wanna talk about the world with him after and see what his plans are. I wanna feel his skin, every inch of it and learn it like a new language. I wanna wake up next to him and roll over and kiss him. I wanna go places with him, and get drunk and forget what we did. I wanna get high with him and look at the stars. I wanna fall in love with him, if only he’d let me.
I’ve slept 3 hours since Sunday when I woke up at 9am to start studying for finals…1 more final and I can finally crash and go to bed forever.
So last year I was talking to this boy and hooking up with him, and long story shirt we were both drunk and said mean shit and he stopped talking to me after being a complete fucking dickhead. Well about 2 months ago he started talking to me again saying random little irrelevant things. Well basically I asked him “why the hell are you talking to me?” And he eventually came back and apologized for everything and said he missed me. Well truth be told I miss him too so I guess now were talking again? I can tell he’s trying to make up for what he did wrong so I’m giving him a chance and it’s not like I didn’t fuck up too.
But the worst part of all of this is, it’s finals week and I am so stressed out but all I can think about is him. I honestly forgot what it was like to have feelings for someone. And what an inconvenient time when I have so much schoolwork to focus on. Damn. How do you get someone off your mind?
I wish I had a boy to cuddle with.
Like have so many blankets on the bed and be all warm and cozy in your comfiest pjs and have a boy to cuddle with as you fall asleep. You don’t even have to be embracing, just the feel of having another person touching your body when you’re asleep is so comforting. I miss that feeling.