I want to fall in love again so so badly.

ashleyrheaa…please i am so bored

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Is being in a clean house, where it isn’t moldy and old. Having clean sheets on my bed, that are flannel and warm. Being able to burn my spring scented candles and feel fresh and light before going to bed. Having a clean bathroom that is only mine to wash my face. Being able to snuggle with my cat, and actually get some sleep because it is dark and quiet. 

Effy and Cassie are two of the most beautiful people in the world and I want to embody both of them.

I’m not very picky, I’ve been liking british sounding music lately but anything would be nice!

I’m sick of forcing myself to be happy…

Well it’s 4:30am and I am up crying..again. You know I almost wish I was crying because I was upset. Lately it’s I have such an empty feeling. Nothing really matters to me anymore..I’m almost just trudging along because that’s what everyone expects me to do. Even sitting here writing this, I honestly feel like I’m just not even here. 

I am so sick of every time I go out with my friends, their main goal being to find boys. What ever happened to just going out to have fun? To not have to makeout with someone to constitute a good night. I hate that our lives revolve around boys..now sure I would totally love to meet someone and be able to cuddle at night and go out with them but hell if I meet them I meet them. I’m so sick of seeking out boys, only to be disappointed in the end. I am 19 years old, I want to live my life and have fun and not worry about petty things like boys. I’m never going to be as young as I am today again and idk about all you guys, but I don’t want to spend my time searching. If something comes along I will be more than happy to accept it, but right now I just want to have fun and live my damn life.

finished my first full bottle of wine tonight halllllaaaa ;)

pink moscato is my main bitch forreal forreal